Posts tagged ‘audrey’

January 1st, 2011

Choose You

by Madeleine Rex

I read this post of Libba Bray’s tonight, recommended by my friend, Audrey. It’s past midnight, and my parents are telling me to go to sleep. I replied with a sincere, “I will when my brain stops clinking around.”

While reading, I tweeted this:

MadeleineRex I am so grateful for parents & counselors & church leaders that believe I can do anything, that hand me the tools to paint whatever I want.

And I am so very grateful. You see, despite the fact that I’m throwing “I love you”s left and right and do try to smile a majority of the time, I’m a tough person to live with. I know this. It’s one of those things that is strictly undeniable. I cry – a lot. I cry when I’m happy, I cry when I’m sad. I cry at least once a day. Quite honestly, it’s a crucial part of my healing process.

I’m easily afraid that someone’s disappointed in me. I’m defensive and indignant. I always, and I mean always, have something to say. I’m overly anxious, and some little bird told me that I tend to push myself too hard.

And, yet, miraculously, there are all these people who stick around. These people who support me, believe in me, flatter me just enough but aren’t afraid to give advice. They know that I have potential for a lot of things – mistakes included. These people – my family, school counselors, church leaders, and other friends – happen to be my nourishment. They supply me with my Daily Values (based on a 2,000 calorie diet) of cheer, love, advice, support, and painful-but-necessary-growth. The arguments I get in – particularly those I am the cause of – are crucial. Every time I say sorry and every time I don’t serves as a life lesson.

I’m grateful for the people who shove me into a pool of ice water (even if I might yell at them). I’m grateful for the people that pull me out. I am grateful for the people who hand me a towel and say, “Next time, maybe the water will be a little bit warmer.”

I’m sorry for those teens around the world who aren’t as fortunate as I, that are seriously lacking in their Daily Values. Those kids who have people shoving them into ice water for all the wrong reasons. Whose water never gets warmer, and who are forced to claw their own way out and wipe themselves down with a washcloth. I hope for their sakes that someone will come into their life who will drastically alter it for the better. I hope for their sake that even if no one comes for a really long time, they’ll have the inner strength and resilience to keep moving on anyway – that their love for themselves will be sufficient.

I have so many dreams. I have ambitions. I want to be a stay-at-home-mom-editor-of-books-who-writes-on-the-side, even if that might be as impossible as a singer-rock-star-guitar player-who-also-juggles-and-flies-airplanes. I want to get an MFA. I want to exceed my own expectations and push myself harder. I know for a fact that I can only get so far – that I am, in fact, not invincible and am not talented in all areas (Goodness, no). But while I am wholeheartedly in love with literature, writing, writers – this fantastic world that is most certainly the one I belong in, I don’t want to confine myself. I don’t want to limit my potential or my knowledge-base. It’s not right to underestimate ourselves, our value to the world, or the effect we can have. It’s so very wrong to say “when” even though the glass is only two-thirds full simply because you’re afraid that someone will knock it over.

I hope that teens will aspire, dream, work hard, find their niche, and encounter people along the way who will prove to be invaluable and incredible. I want no one to live life contently in a 4×4 box. There are so many possibilities, so many holes in this world that need to be filled – holes shaped just like you. Somewhere in the future there is a happy, smarter, vivacious you – a you who will face troubles and loads of crap, but will always bounce back, whether because you’ve clawed yourself out or someone gave you a hand. There’s also a you who has limited his or herself, who has accepted a less satisfactory condition, and that you is the one you want to avoid.

So, while I’m out-of-this-world lucky to have people who love me and want to see me succeed – who say “when” and not “if,” but also manage to keep my head from entirely losing itself in the clouds, who are always there to say what needs to be said or not (both teach equally important lessons) – and I might seem like the most ridiculous person to try to give advice, I have to sum this up and say one thing:

Choose the truest version of you. Always choose the path that leads to a better you, the you that is kinder, wiser, remarkable, beyond all comparison. This you will influence the world for good and stretch the boundaries of This Cannot Be Done. This you will inspire, and this you will be happier. This, despite the corny, sappy-movie-ness of it, is the you that you are meant to be. You were born with a potential to wreak havoc on people’s expectations, to wow and to uplift, and you were given the means (though it might be deep inside) to meet that potential.

July 5th, 2010

Award! And more about Madeleine… BEWARE

by Madeleine Rex

I love awards, don’t you? I’m so glad that Wordbird is enjoyed by you folks. Not to mention how wonderful it is to think that people I don’t even know are reading what I write. It’s fantastic. Thanks so much for reading! Speaking of which, I’m planning a giveaway to celebrate 10,000 blog views (thanks for what is only the second of many times I say that in this post!) and having written 100 posts! However, I don’t know what book to giveaway. Anything that has been published already would do. If you have any input, talk to me in the comments!

And… Thanks to Sarah Enni for passing me The Versatile Blogger award! I’m very grateful!

You might regret reading this post. At this particular moment, I don’t know what I’m going to list as the mandatory 7 things about yourself. I’d be nervous if I were you.

But… I’m going to go over-the-top. A friend of mine who just happens to have a spectacular blog (titled Holes in My Brain – how irresistible is that?), Audrey, tagged me to list 25 random things about myself.

So, below: 25 things about myself…

  1. I love TV. A lot. It’s mostly the characters that draw me. I can never resist the opportunity to find more people to love.
  2. I love avocado. And mushrooms. I eat mushrooms cooked, raw, everything.
  3. I don’t just read books. I collect them. Every book I read is added to my wishlist, and I hardly ever give books away.
  4. I currently own four copies of Anne of Green Gables and counting. Actually, I intend to buy these when I get my first book advance.
  5. I hate it when I say sorry and someone argues, “Why? It’s not your fault! Why should you be sorry?” I feel the urge to say, right now, that the definition of “sorry” clearly states that it can mean you feel sympathetic.
  6. My name is pronounced Mad-eh-lynn, not Mad-eh-line. I will be eternally grateful to my parents for this.
  7. I really enjoy reading out loud to people.
  8. I love to bake. Especially cakes.
  9. I can’t swim. Well, I can a little bit. Only enough to save my life under semi-dire circumstances. If we pass into totally-dire or utlra-dire, my dad will have to pull me along… or I’ll just be screwed.
  10. I hate math. I still work hard at it and do pretty well, but I hate it.
  11. I am a teenager, but, against all likelihood, I’d rather spend a day with my mom or dad than with friends. I become more clingy as I get older.
  12. My real goal, despite the fact that I always say “while in my teens”, is to be published or in the process of being published at 16. And, no, you didn’t just read that.
  13. I love a lot of people. And I love those people a lot.
  14. I’m like my bosom friend, Anne Shirley/Blythe, in that I’m usually ecstatic or simply happy, but I can plunge into the depths of despair in the blink of an eye. However, my mood usually returns to its pleasant state quickly.
  15. I love hugs. A lot. I hug my parents constantly. They get irritated when I stop them in their tracks, sometimes.
  16. I have two finches. One is an Owl Finch, and the other is a Red-Cheeked Cordon Bleu. They’re both girls and their names are Clove and Willow. I want to get a red finch soon and name her Cherry.
  17. I hate broccoli. Really.
  18. I go through moisturizer like my brother goes through waffles.
  19. I procrastinate like there’s no tomorrow. It’s so difficult to write with Twitter and email.
  20. I like to sprint, but I don’t really like jogging.
  21. I love the color green. Actually, the sweatshirt I’m wearing now is green.
  22. I own two pairs of moccasins. One is orange and the other is purple. I love brightly colored moccasins.
  23. If I had to eliminate one dessert from my life, and my options were ice cream or cake, I’d choose cake. Ice cream is simply too precious to me.
  24. I like gory movies. And scary ones. I laugh at the gore, though. I always watch this kind of movie with my dad because I need to grasp his arm tightly when I’m freaking out but determined to keep watching.
  25. I love 80’s music and 80’s movies. Go Fletch!

Those are so difficult! Anyway, it’s time for me to pass the award onward to 15 blogs I’ve recently discovered. However, you guys only need to list 7 things about yourselves, link back to my blog (I’m not being snobbish – it’s actually in the rules), and then list 15 blogs you’ve recently discovered and let the bloggers know.

And, because I haven’t recently discovered 15 blogs, I’m only going to list a couple.

Yeah, I’m not subscribed to as many blogs as most of you, but I love the few I’ve found recently! I recommend checking them out!